So I know this is late, but I just found this on my dad’s computer screen:

“(My Aunts and Uncles names have been taken out) hope you’re all having a great time at Amanda’s engagement party. I hope you guys are now telling mom and dad the truth, that things will never be good between me and that part of the family again. from what he says to me you all must be lying to him. As far as I’m concerned, That part of the family can go fuck themselves, including Amanda. So I will tell him the truth since no one else is.

Chloe, you haven’t gotten back to me with a guest list to James’s graduation party. If I am not good enough to attend family functions then here are the options: I will show up and tell everyone what I think, and most likely get thrown out… you won’t invite those involved like (My cousins names have been taken out) or don’t invite me, just like today.

Personally, I am glad those involved have now shown their true colors so I don’t have to be around phonies anymore. Since I am blackballed from the family I really don’t have much else to lose, so speaking my mind can do me no worse. I will however be hiring an attorney when the time comes to deal with their estate, since I really feel I cannot trust my siblings and family to communicate in a non judgmental, non biased manner. This confirmed by the lack of communications that has recently gone on and the fact that I have never been included in any of the financial decisions you have made together concerning our parents.

Chloe, Although I don’t have much respect for (my step brother), Your terminology about (my step brother) is wrong, he is not a predator. Most of what went on was when they were both juveniles, experimenting, even James’s attorney concurred this with me and noted that she handles cases like this frequently, and if it were not for the 30 days over 4 year difference in age there would have be NO case. She also indicated that if this had gone to trial (my step brother) would have most likely gotten off. James has freely admitted to his attorney that most all of what happened was consensual, he seems to tell you a different view of it, one that is deep, dark and terrible. Perhaps he won’t tell you the other side of it because he is embarrassed, it won’t incur pity and all the attention he is now getting, and he wouldn’t be able to blame his shitty deceitful past behaviors on anyone but himself (sounds a lot like his mom). Even his attorney told me that from their conversations James has many problems whose cause had nothing to do with (my step brother). Like I have said from the beginning, of the main focus of James’s problems are on what happened between (my step brother) and James, many of James’s problems will be overlooked and thus not dealt with. I am the only one that is not doing that.

I love both of my kids like most any father and have done many things for them.I respectfully disagree with the family that I am abandoning my children and more interested in my house then they. I will not be blind to the action of my children just because they are my kids…

I’ll send this to James too, I have nothing to hid and the truth will set me free. If James truly believes this he will understand and feel free to question me about anything I have written.

Oh, one last thing, if you’re wondering why I would be taking the time to write this, well, again don’t judge me until you have walked in my shoes. look where you all are with my children and where I am. how would you feel and what would you do. . I don’t think I’ll be reading anything that is sent to me, so if you have anything to say relating to this email you can say it to my face sometime, or not, I really don’t care since I’m not expecting anyone to understand me. . I’m sorry it has come to this but it is what it is.”

(You don’t really have to read all of that and I don’t expect you to, but in summery it just says that my father is not being treated correctly by his family and now he is saying that “they could all go fuck themselves.”)
When I read this I was shocked. I mean, I knew that my father and his family didn’t get along because of the whole step-brother molestation thing, but I did know how far it went. This message was from May 20th and it really made my stomach hurt to read. I can’t believe how rude and crazy my father would be to his own family, and I never knew how bad his family treated him. I have to believe that they are both at fault here because they are both taking this and are tearing their own family apart. I just don’t understand why a family would ruin such a loving family with so many memories over what happened years ago. I mean, I understand that the situation was very traumatic and caused my family a lot of problems, but it shouldn’t break up the whole family.
Anyway, I have some other stuff to talk about since I’m in the writing mood. My brother has been in a Florida rehab center for about 4 months. I believe that he is clean now, but I can never trust him. I just can’t get my hopes up. And speaking about getting my hopes up, he missed his curfew twice in the half-way house and now he is driving home from Florida as I type this. The first time his meeting ran late; alright whatever at least it’s not drugs, but the second time my brother had the brilliant idea to drive two of his “friends” from the rehab who were convicts somewhere about 40 miles away. And of course, they robbed him and left him in the middle of who knows where. My brother is really bad at directions and since they stole his phone, he did have any GPS or anything. So when he tried to get back home and he ran out of gas somewhere in Florida, a cop gave him enough to get back home but by this time it was 2 o’clock in the morning and so he was kicked out of the half-way house. Yup, he screwed up again, and you know what? I’m not surprised, even though everyone else is. y family needs to learn the hard way that you should never get your hopes up when it comes to my brother because he will always let you down without fail. You just need to accept that and not expect anything more.
But I can’t write anymore because I’m getting too upset, see ya. Thanks for listening tumblr, even though I don’t expect anyone to read this. :/